Once upon a time, I participated in the Fuel-UP camp ‘07 (27-29 Dec). It was just like a normal camp with lessons and discussions and games and worship. Throughout the first 2 days of camp, I realised that the main distraction hindering me from truly giving my all to God was the issue of self-consciousness. This is especially so during worship, where I would be very conscious of the people around me and this prevents me from giving my all in worship.
So, on the night of the second day, we were supposed to have more group discussion, but pastor Jenn felt that God was telling her to have a time of worship. So she said a prayer for all of us and challenged us, as the worship began, to stand up one by one and declare that Jesus is our Lord. Hearing everyone around declaring one by one was very powerful indeed and I broke down and cried. It was during that worship set that I decided to cast aside all my self-consciousness and really gave my all to God, and I felt more-than-just-happy knowing that God would be pleased.
Then pastor Jenn asked those who want to do something in their school for God to come to the front for prayer. (About 3/4 of the people went up to the front!) I went up and there I got prayed for by Ho Wai, Kenny and Derrick. (Contents are not really important due to the nature of this testimony, but God spoke to me through them about my ministry in ACS (I).)
What I’m trying to say that all I had to do was to make a little effort and give up that great obstacle of self-consciousness, and God blessed me with so much I couldn’t handle. I was so overwhelmed by His grace that I couldn’t stop crying. God didn’t need to bless me and I would have been praising Him for helping me remove this obstacle. He could have also have just blessed me once and I would be overwhelmed, but He didn’t stop there! How great and unfathomable is His love for all of us! (this sounds like part of a song. =P)
Now going back to the real world of school, my prayer for all would be that He’ll be our strength, our guidance, our wisdom… our everything in all our endeavours of ‘08. That we may be His faithful servants to prepare the fields of our schools for Him to reap a great harvest.
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